The last few months have been really hard. There's not much I can point to and say "that's what made it hard". It's been this slow build of running myself into the ground for far too long. My work was too much, the stuff around the house was too much... It's been a tiring season.
But, through God's hand I have a smaller client load. It made us step back and realize I was trying to do too much. I'm trying to look at other areas of my life where I'm trying to do too much and not focusing on the things that matter most.
Tonight I turned off the TV and BabyFish and I played together. It had been a great morning at the Pumpkin Patch, and there was great fun had by all. But Saturday nights are always just the two of us. I like to think of it as Mommy Son Date Night. So I sat on the floor and played trains and firetrucks with him. I loved watching his little face as he learned new ways to play with things, and thinking about how his little mind is processing all the things he learns as he plays.
I'm tired and I can't way I wanted to sit on the floor and play with toys, but I'm glad I did. I'm hoping that this deep tired feeling will go away but even if it doesn't, I'll stop to play on the floor with my little one and enjoy him.